I do know above all else that God is there, and He loves and care for me. - Bethany
Bethany began suffering from depression at a young age and because of that, it was hard for her to make and keep friends. It was hard for her to talk to people so she easily got attached to the few that she could talk to and easily considered them "best friends", but time and again they kept walking out of her life leaving her more depressed. As she grew older, she found one particular person that connected well with her and they did everything together. She loved it.
One day when she came back from school, she felt so sad but couldn't explain why. All she wanted to do was stay in her bed and not do anything or talk to anyone. She tried reaching out to her friend, but she didn't understand her. Bethany went ahead and told her mom about it so her mother took her to see a doctor and she was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. That same day her friend asked her to stop being friends. This wrecked her which led her to suicidal thoughts. She kept asking God why all of this was happening to her, the depression, taking friends from her....she had hit rock-bottom. Through all of this, she never doubted the existence of God but doubted His love for her.
Finally, she reached out to God for help to overcome the challenges, and her prayers were answered. With the grace of God, counseling and medication, she started feeling a lot better.
Bethany is not completely healed of her depression and anxiety but with God's unfailing grace and love, she keeps getting better. She hopes to graduate from school and help others who are going through similar situations to overcome them.
Words to Live By:
"Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God" Psalm 42:11 (NIV).
"Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God" (NKJV).
"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand" Isaiah 41:10 (NIV).
Spiritual Depression: Its Causes and Its Cures - D. Martin Lloyd Jones
When the Darkness Will Not Lie - John Piper